A horrible thought!

Today everyone was posting pictures of them and their mothers on Facebook. I went to see if I had one to use, as tomorrow is mothers day.  I had a few where we both where in the photo, but you could not see us both.

You know what I mean. The photos you know who the back of the head belongs to but you just do not feel like it is a photo of the two of you. I had to ask family to get photos, and a few where found, but I was an infant. 

I am thankful for them, more than most would know. 

It made me sad, and made me realise as a single parent, it is hard to make sure there are photos of you with you children. Partly because you.are always taking them. So I decided I will make sure I get photos of the boys and i , more than just family photos, but photos of us snuggling.

Just I'm case, if I'm not around. They know I not only took care of them, but spent time with them. And that they can post photos on mothers day! 

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!

I no longer have a baby.

From they day they are born, you know that they are growing up.

You understand as they hit milestone

After milestone

Yet really knowing your baby, isn't going to be a baby forever. It hits you, and not softly, one day you are snuggling your baby, and the next, the next he has his first lose tooth. PUNCH, SMACK, FWHAP right upside the head. Your baby is now a big kid. 

From one parent to another. Snuggle a little longer, read another story, and just let them be little. It really is just for a little while. 

Country Crock Original Spread Garlic Bread

I received some country crock original spread. I got it from @influenster to try and give a review for free. We have tried it in many, many things. The boys fav so far was garlic bread.
Ingredients
1 loaf Italian bread sliced
Country crock original spread
Garlic salt
Crushed Basil

Preheat oven to 350 degrees
Place scliced bread on a cookie sheet
Spread a good amount or country crock spread on top of all slices of bread
Sprinkle garlic salt and Basil on top of the country crock spread
Put in oven on middle rack for about 12 min or until desired amount of toasting.

Mornings.... oh the joys

This morning was a blast, let me tell you what. I had a friend and her 3 kids stay with us for the night. I woke up before everyone and thought Omg... I can shower!!!!!!... not... I just get shampoo in my hair and I hear.. "mo....momm... mommy....mommy... " I peak my head out just in time to scream..." GET OVER THE TOILET." And see the eww hit the floor. Ugh. He makes it to the toilet. I smell somethin.. sniff.... sniff... "g did you poop?"
"Ya mama it is all over....

Omg.

So much for my shower my son has been peeing out his butt all day...

Family is supposed to be the strongest bond.

You know growing up you siblings are your best friend. My little sister really "was" my best friend up until three years ago. As adults even we spent weekends together and talked on the phone everyday. I also have an older sister, and not for lack of trying I have never built a relation ship with her. I can not say as to why, I try all the time, invites to dinner, asking to get kids together to play, or just calling to talk. But it still just has never worked it seems all one ended. The three of us are all we have though, our mother the only tie between us is gone, she tragicly passed in June of 2000. People say in the wake of tragidy bonds are built, and that may have been true to my little sister and I, but not with our older sister.

SSI Appointments for children With Disabilities..... Bah Humbug I say you!!

When it comes to things being just plan out not wanted, I put 3 Hrs worth of talking with an MD and a PHD about my son at the top. Mind you they have all his medical, and school records anyway. I first got the letter about the appointments a week or so ago, I contact the contact person about said appointment and what I need to take, be prepared for.Lets call said person Kyle, I like that name. Anyway so I call Kyle and get straight threw. Connected right to his office and he ANSWERS, that is amazing, but OK. I ask Kyle my question and he say " it is just a Physical, and the PHD is going to do something called the Denver test" Now mind you G has had the Peabody 4 times and each time he was dx with DD (developmental delay). I relay this info to Kyle, he states he has not seen this and request info from school... the school WAS on the app in the first place, bless his heart anyway. Well anyway. I prepared for today like a crazy woman I think. One I have been told when meeting a new doc, witch we do quite often to always look nice the first visit. So I paint my nails, wear a skirt, and blouse, even put make up on. I bring snacks. drinks, Papers, papers, and more papers, I also bring toys Kindle Fire. You know just to be prepared. I get there and the doc is wearing a tank top and black capries...lol,  I felt over dressed. We go in and do the apt witch I thought was going to be them checking out G, Nope no checking out involved. She asked me questions made copies of the papers i had, and said thank you. Though she did not take lightly to G's fondness of light switch's... that was fun. OK I guess. Then in comes the PHD, She has him stack blocks, feed a baby, kick a ball. G can do these things, Then she sits down with me and as questions. First she says how good I am doing with him being on my own (pat on the back). Then she watch's him play, Scream at nothing in particular kick her throw him self on the floor... She says I see why day cares do not want him. She also said she could refer me to a lot of help but it is mostly all in Omaha, and it still would not be child care because the only one she can think of that would take a medically fragile, child with behaviors has a 2 year waiting list. By then G would be in school, and I could go back to work anyway... ugg. Why can't things just be easy. Why couldn't people have listioned to me when he was little so we could have had help by now with out being Behind on everything. I am mad, upset, and am really feeling bad for relying on family the way I do. I just wish this was easier. Or that S (G's sperm donor) Would help out a little more. Like stop quieting his job all the time so can at lest get the messley Child Support he is ordered. The PHD did say that, he should SHOULD quilfy but it is up to the guy in the office Kyle, and if we are denied to appeal because sometimes that is all the want you to do, show that you are willing to fight for it. I really hope things start to get better around here, I don't think things could get any worse any how. Well thanks for reading God Bless...
 

Earth Day!

I do not know if celebrating the Earth just one day a year is enough. I do however firmly believe that there are some out there who have no clue, what all their diapers, and water bottles are doing to the earth or sea life. I as a mother have two very green little boys. They both know that human milk is for human babies, that cloth diapers are best, and making your own is better than buying.
Earth day was created by a sadistic man, who murdered his girl friend. With that said it really had nothing to do with the day it's self. If in fact people where teaching about preserving the earth, and reduce, reuse, recycle it wouldn't be so bad.
Today I saw numerous, adds, posters, flyers, and pamphlets, all to address one day that will wind up in the trash, isn't that a bit redundant. Maybe hand out water bottles with info on them, or reuseable shopping bags, not more trash!